21st century lover boy.

His phone vibrates in his pocket, the messages all cute, sweet, and short. In our age the sweet little nothings that you would have whispered into your lover's ear when our grandparents were our age are now text reading across a small cell phone screen. It's the same feeling washing over you, the same simple idea, the same rush. The only difference is that it's easier to misread a situation, easier to not take something the right way, or not even hear what's being said. The death of everything simple. The death of everything genuine. There is no recovery, no going back to when love was love and it was as simple as that. No text messaging, no trying to interpret vague or overly neutral messages, no guessing.

It makes me wonder if its ever been simple. If there's always been this massive disconnect between what a woman says and what she means, between what a man is told and what he hears and wants to believe. I know that in my personal experience, it's always been this way; but then again I'm only 22 years old. Who knows how it was 50 or even 100 years ago. Was it exactly what was said and that's that; or have men like myself always been second-guessing and torturing themselves with every possible angle or meaning that something could have? I guess we'll never know. Ultimately, its debatable at best. My reason for asking these questions is that lately all I seem to be doing when it comes to dating or "hanging out", depending on who you're talking to and what they're comfortable with saying that you're doing together, is interpreting actions, phrases, body language, and all kinds of other things that will single handedly destroy a man's soul and confidence.

How are we ever supposed to be able to 'fall in love' if we're constantly saying things with hidden meanings, testing the water, or not saying what we mean? There's no hope for something that requires ultimate honesty when we do this giant, extremely pointless, and retarded dance around what we're actually feeling and going through. We're all so afraid that all these things could go wrong, rejection, appearing needy, or sometimes finding out that the person feels the same as you.

I'm not sure that there's anything to get out of any of what I'm writing. My advice? Learn to let things be simple. Learn to let things take you where you might not have expected. What's the worst that could happen?